I was never crazy
On my own
But now I know that
There's a link between the two
Being close to craziness
And being close to you
-- Katie Melua, The Closest Thing to Crazy

Had a great dinner with V, JM and KC (JM's bf) at Chalk. The food was good and the company better. Shared stories about overseas trips, the dangerous sport of golf, golf widows, bosses (past and present), dodgy classmates and cute nurses.

On the ride back, KC suddenly said , "you know Qinghui... J told me what happened and I really feel for you". And the strangest thing happened. For the first time in a year, I could talk about it without getting upset. "You should tell her why this affected you so much", KC said. "No, I don't think I want to do that", I replied. "I just want to stay away".

I'll see you on the street
Some other time
And all our words would just fall
Out of line
While we're dreaming
Straight from the heart
- Bryan Adams, Straight from the Heart

Gazing at the Sun & Moon and talking with the common people. Ion, Heaven's Loft, duplicity and the games people play.

I should really get more sleep.

It's close to 11pm on a Friday night and I'm still in office. Instead of being angsty I'm actually quite thankful for this -- every minute I spend working is one minute less for emo-ing.

"Keep the faith", Nick told me.

I will try.

Can't sleep.

The curtains flutter in the cool morning breeze. The sound of the lone car driving on the road; he seems to be in a hurry. Wonder where he's off to this early in the morning. The lorry with the day's papers arrives at the carpark. The sound of the coffeeshop shutters echo through the silent estate.

A new morning. A new day. The lorry drops its packages, and moves on.

Should really try to get some sleep.

Saw the World turning in my sheets
And once again I cannot sleep
Walk out the door and out the street
Look at the stars
Look at the stars fall down
And wonder where did I go wrong
- James Blunt, Same Mistake

Nick if you're reading this -- Bro, you're right. I should never have doubted your advice. On hindsight you were so right on so many levels it's uncanny. I should have listened to you right from the start. I am now a firm believer of Nick's Universal Law.

She told me her name was Billie Jean
As she caused a scene
Then every head turned with eyes
That dreamed of being the one
Who will dance on the floor in the round

- Michael Jackson, Billie Jean

Moonwalkers, Thrillers, sequin gloves and I am the one. Healing the world, making history and living dangerously. Billie Jean, dancing on the floor in the round, here one day, gone one night.

Bye bye MJ.

See the lights
See the party
The ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know
- Taylor Swift, Love Story

City spaces, martinis, a listening ear and spectacular night views. Friends, songs, being in tune and going off key. Of balconies in the summer air, my humps and sweet, sweet love. Yakiniku beef burgers, lemon teas and flashy tables.